Saturday, June 13, 2009♥
Finally come here to update
after aweek...ler...
lately been kind of upset...
cos I realise tat my existence
is not needed...I feel negleted in
someways...I really dunno...
wats the reason of livin...
but lately I also hav a person
who really cares abt mi...
but I felt tat I might b a bothered to him
haix..but really thx to him spendin time
with mii...happy...heex...
I feel like I should walk out of his life
tats the best ting...but I dunnoo..
wat to do..haix...I feel really depressed.
if I nt in tis world tats the best ting..
[1:09 AM]
Sunday, June 7, 2009♥
Rina c I update already k??...
Hmm lately tings had gone out of way...
I and Romeo no more le and is been 4 months or more
then I startin my new life wif new job
at Mescluns...with new friends...
plus recently met up with cassy
my old friend...was kind of unexpected
to c her at st.james...
haix...lately I found sum one I like
but I dun tink tat any ting will be happening..
cos I like him but I wont let him noe...
and wats more although he
might not remember but
I still treat it as a memory
of him been sweet and close
to mii...I was really happy the
incident makes my day damn happy...
but I feel like an idiot or a one time ting
or rather say that I m like a slut...
but I really felt tat tis was the only time he
IS MINE....
but I noe it wont happen and I promise myself
I wont tok to him or get close to him more ler
I will stilll keep to myslef about him...
I really will rmb the kiss and the hugs and the care
he gave mi...tat moment is the only moment
I felt like a human rather then a toy....
I really will treasure the memory...
jus that I regretted that I didnt
take a photo with him...if I did
I tink I will b much more happy..
but too bad I forgotten...stupid mii...
ah~~~~~I really didnt tot of openin to any one
but I dun know y I jus kind of only open to him
attracted should I say...
I noe he will nv like mi...so I decided tat
I shall nv say it...even I die or wat so ever
I will nv let him noe....but I really wish to tell him
u r the most special guy that I like...
cos even though I love jonathan
I can nv feel the
love or care but wif tis
particular person
I felt sum one carin mi...cos when there is a
fight he hugs mi tightly and
protectin mii..
when I kind of "angry" with him
but he gave mi
a sudden tight hug and kiss to
makes mi happy..
although he might b drunk or not remember at all
I dun mind cos I really wanna thx him...
for takin careof me when I am nothin...
to Him..
but mayb even if is other gers tat is
with ther wif him
he will still do the same tings...
but is ok...I still like him...
when the day we started tokin is
the day I look at u
but I noe that no matter wat in your
eyes ther is no me..
but I really hope tat u will find ur
happiness....
find the one u truely love...
and I will jus stand a corner
and wish u...to b happy...
I promise u that
I will nv contact u any more...
I wont disturb ur lfe...I noe u will nv
treat mi more then a friend so
I will stay away...I m sorry....
tat I fall for u when u hope I wont...
"I like u K..."
[7:57 AM]
