Tuesday, July 22, 2008♥
Hmmm..so long didnt update my tis blog ler...
I really dunno wats goin on in mi..
i feel more and more no confidence
in myself ler...
I feel tat if I m ard I will hurt my frenz
is been months I didnt c
or even mit angeline jie ler..
I totally miss her...but I noe tat she is happy
wif her current life...plus I hasnt
been a sister...I didnt help her or be ther for her when she
nid sum one...I really miss her...
been sooo much years together ler..but tis year is the first year
i felt loney without her...really hope we can
still mit up...angeline jie sori and I really
really miss euu alot...love euu tis frenz alot too..
another ting is...jia qi..and mel kor...I really
really hate myself...cos I couldn't do much
ends up both of them got hurt...
all is myfault...I jus hate myself for bein in
tis world..really hope I did not exist...SORRY!!
I didnt mean to hurt my frenz...
is better if I close the door and b back in the
darkness..so I would not hurt ani one ani more..
I m sorry...I jus dun wanna c ani one of my precious frenz
upset...if my life can exchange for their happiness
I will do it...tats a promise...
ever since I told andy abt "it" I hav lost him tis frenz..
cos I m too scare...I dare not face him..
I first time in life avoided a guy and is
sum one tat I thought I jus treat him as frenz
really hope I didnt tell him I like him..
mayb I shld nt like ani one...
single is rather gd...at least I wont hurt
ani one...I really hope to slp and
dun wake up ani more....
Day by Day I Hate myself....
More N More..
[5:03 AM]
