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Saturday, January 26, 2008♥

My love will stay wif u forever ..

Uncle Kiat, Xiong Papa, mii, Da Xiong & Uncle Tat

Uncle Kiat, XIong PaPa, Ah So&Mii

"Yu Sheng"

[8:07 AM]

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My love will stay wif u forever ..

Hmm todae jus finish work...

came hme early cos daddy fetch mii..yeahx!!

NEW CAR...Honda Stream...Super nice..

heex..then todae kind of busy at CBQ

cos todae gt wedding and company function..

but todae over all kind of ok la..cos gt my frenz

so at least gt sum one pei wo...

heex..suppose to go drinkin wif Jia Qi de

but todae my dinner end kind of late plus tml

I hav to work so hav to change to nxt week la..heex..

k la..gt to slp ler..ywanx..view my

CBQ Xiong xiong Family...

[8:03 AM]

Wednesday, January 23, 2008♥

My love will stay wif u forever ..

Finally free to blog ler..

ya my blog growin spider web ler..hahaha

hmm wat can I sae lei..

I miss all my precious frenz and my guy..hahaha...

ani way..love my work place..

damn lots of nice ppl la...

like ah yong, kok waii, ah so, hong kor and mani more

kind of like CBQ (chinese banquet)

but soon I hav to change to another work place ler..

no more seein CBQ ppl ler..sad...**Sobx**

but I enjoy my life at ther la...super enjoy..heex..

I LOVE PAN PACIFIC CBQ...

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Monday, January 14, 2008♥

My love will stay wif u forever ..

Finally can blog ler..

hmm..todae first day of work at pan pacific..

nice place and nice ppl..heex..

haix so sianz...

[5:58 AM]

Wednesday, January 9, 2008♥

My love will stay wif u forever ..

Hmmm...so long nvber blog ler..

haix..jus cant slp so come to blog...

for past few days been lockin up myself to tink alot...

I kind of avoid my shatec frenz etc..Jia qi mel and rina..

didnt tok to them for sum time ler...

ani way..tis past few days I lock myself in my room..

onli came out to bathe or brush teeth...

and I jus kept tinkin abt the nite on 31st...

I dunno izzit I cant or izzit I dun dare..

and I realise I jus dun dare..I duno y..

to mi HE is really a great and wonderful guy...

I really wanted to noe hw is him tis days..

but I jus cant brin myself to ask ani ting abt him...

to mi losin him is like losin everyting in my life ler..

but I dunno y..y I jus cant b like others forget and move on...

in my entire love road I had nv encounter prob like tis..

.for my past relationships..I can let go soo easily...

but tis time round for mi is hard..

I can sae tat tis time round

I m a totally wimp, coward and a big fucking idiot fool...

i really dun dare to let go of him..

I can sae I totally let go the relationship

but is the person I cant let go..I dunno y...

I tot after wat he sae wat he had done can

let mi totally let go of him in my heart...

but I realise that I cant..

his already like a scar in my heart...

tis time round is nt jus hurt tat had been made is more then tat...

first time in my life I placed a guy in the first place..

and first time in my life I love tis person till I wish to gif him all..

jus wish to b by his side when his unhappy..

.true tat I sae to him a m a toy...

wat cause mi to sae or even tink of it because of his words

because of the way he sae..

is like everyting wasnt a matter to him..

it really hurts mi...

for nw no matter who or even wat kind of guys

is infront of mi..I still wont go for it...

even he move on I will still stay..

I really dare nt move ani steps...

sum times I really hope he can read my blog and noe hw I feel...

to ppl time is antidote but to mi time is a poison tat I hav taken..

.every one tot tat I m happy I m strong.

.but the truth is I m a totally wimp and coward..

times and times I really feel like hurtin myself and

let the blood flow..but I jus cant..

cos I noe tat no one would even pity mi..

.jus felt stupid...millions of tears i shed...

but tis time round my tears cant even roll dwn

cos I scare of losin him...even though I already lost him..

.really hope tat monday start work..

I can numb myself wif work..haix..

jus hope tat my life ends as soon as possible..arhx...

CECILIA CHUA IS JUS A BIG FUCKING IDIOT FOOL...

she jus dosent wan to forget...

I jus wanna sae...

I will wait for him till my heart stop beatin...

I really truly love him..

and tat will nv change...

I LOVE YOU!! JTZQ

______________________________

To Him::

Sori I dun tink I can keep the promise

sori I didnt dare to keep

cos I noe tat I no longer can b happy

cos without euu in my life

happy tis word is meaningless

[8:38 AM]

Saturday, January 5, 2008♥

My love will stay wif u forever ..

其實還愛你

我討厭　陰天的風　冷得那麼刺痛

只有你　能夠撫平所有的寂寞

昨天的風箏在角落

被誰丟到了路口

我很不想讓你找到離開的理由

每一夜　閉上眼睛　我看到了惡夢

你微笑　但是旁邊的人不是我

天空切開一道裂縫

直接割到我心中

不想裝作脆弱　也不想愛得懦弱

其實我非常愛你不想失去你

難道我沒有權利說我不願意

你給了他的吻　雖然只有餘溫

可知道我多渴望抓住你的心

我知道他很愛你你怕他傷心

我每天假裝開心害怕你離去

可不可以任性　求求你不要去

藏在我心裡　最後一句　其鴦還愛你

可不可以任性　求求你不要去

藏在我心裡　最後一句

其實還愛你

[11:05 PM]

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My love will stay wif u forever ..

Hmm Todae was kind of borin la..

mornin wake up go breakfast wif mummie & kors..

after tat went hme slp..then afternoon mummie

wake mi up go bugis..

plan to get clothes de but rainnin..

so didnt hav the mood to even choose..

ani way..I jus cant wait till work..

onli work can let mi forget all the hurt

I hate myself..

more then hatin euu..

I love euu more

Then I love myself..

[3:24 AM]

Friday, January 4, 2008♥

My love will stay wif u forever ..

[4:56 AM]

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My love will stay wif u forever ..

Hmm..Todae went out wif angeline jie..

to Bugis she bought a bag..hmm then I browse

ard to c the shirts and shorts..hmm..

then after tat we went koven to eat..

love the chocolate fondue...hmm..

Hahah..nw sore throat gettin worst..

I LOVE CHOCOLATE..

Jus hopin to forget him..

I really hate myself..

Y i mus keep him in mind...

[4:50 AM]

Thursday, January 3, 2008♥

My love will stay wif u forever ..

Hmm..ytd kind of fun and sad la..

ytd went out wif

qiqi, Melvin kor and Rina..

at first I mit kor kor to go sch

hand up the contract..

then after tat went to mit up wif

rina and qiqi...at Central ( clark quey )

so I rina and kor went to the

restaurant to take a sit to wait for qiqi

kind of hard to find the restaurant

so we found the PASTA De WARUKU..

so we waited for qi to come but she oso cant

find the place so kor went to

bring her to the place

after that we other food I

didnt eat cos I dun feel like

eatin so I jus had garlic toast..

after tat we went to walk walk..

Melvin kor buy clothes..then I, qi and Rina

Sit dwn and tok...

after tat we had the ice cream

Sea Salt & Caramel..+..Green Tea

My Favourite...

After tat we walk to suntec...

then rina went of to BBQ left mi and the couples

kind of feel like a "lightbulb"

especially after wat happen on monday..

but no matter wat c QIQI happy can ler.

I jus wan QIQI to b happy...can ler..

after tat we all went hme ler lo..then I watch my VCDs

FELT SOO TERRIBLE

WITHOUT EUU

IN MY LIFE BUT I HAV TO MOVE ON
WITHOUT EUU

[7:06 PM]

Wednesday, January 2, 2008♥

My love will stay wif u forever ..

Tis Year I Wish

For Family:

Stay Happy, Healthy and united

For Friends:

Wish they found the best companion and career

Most important Stay Happy and healthy..

Lastly: For Him..

Stay Happy and everything in his life will b a sucess

His Career will get one step higher..

most important he mus stay healthy...

[3:38 AM]

Tuesday, January 1, 2008♥

My love will stay wif u forever ..

hmm..ytd was kind of nt my day...

ytd suppose to b fun and get every one relax..

but ends up was a veri sad day..

ytd early mornin wake up

went seng siong wif yang bin and alan..

bought bbq tings and carton of Beers..

after which came my hse pack the tings and

then ard 2++ left to the bbq there..

after tat we went downtown

to collect satay and mit up wif

Melvin, Jia qi & Rina..

after tat take cab back to the pit and started off

ani way sir hisham was ther early

so started cookin the foods..

later on each of them started to arrive..

and finally he really arrive and I dare nt face him

I walk to the other pit.. to avoid him..

but after tat every one started goin another pit

especially after andrew appear..

surely make him feel weird.. but after tat

he walk to the beach I really

wanted to tok to him soo badly

so I took the courage walk over and tok to him wif jia Qi's

help...so I tok to him

ask him join us..

so he walk back sit at the bench

I get him food but he didnt eat and

disappear went I jus make a turn..

when he disappear I was so sad..

I cant hold it but to walk away..

after tat I notice Jia Qi wasnt ard

so I ask melvin and melvin told mi wher she gone

saw her cryin and I noe wats goin on

bcus of me she approach jonathan to tell him

how I feel towards him..bcus of her

I went forward to tok to him..

after tokin to him..and he told mii

"Lets End it "

I was soo heartbroken..

but no choice to sae ok...seriously

I still cant put him down but I noe it jus nt the rite time..

and I finally get to take a photo wif him and

tok out every ting..really thx to MELVIN & JIA QI

ani way wasnt all..jia qi..gt drunk rina too..

I keep drinkin but nth happen...

haix..ani way..after all that we all go hme ard

6++am then once I came hme I slp liao..

after tat afternoon wake up and bathe

then slp again then after tat mummie wake mi up to eat

then after eatin came hme watch TB then use com..

sianz..tml nid to do lots of tings liao..

I HATE TO SAE BUT STILL I WANNA SAE...

JONATHAN THX FOR THE SWEET MEMORIES..
N THX FOR TELLIN MI IT HAS ENDED.......

THX FOR LETTIN mi NOE THAT I M A TOY....

[7:30 AM]