Sunday, August 3, 2008♥
Without the life of him..
I dunno is Good or bad
I dunno is it torture or a bliss
I feel I m not wat I use to b ler..
I hate myself...
y cant I jus smile...y cant I
jus let go..I really hate it
is like my heart totally not
interested in ani ting ani more
all I noe is make myself
tired out...I m a fool
being wif him is the
happiest tine I ever had
he took away all my smile
he took away my laughter
most important he took away my heart..
wat I use to be can nv come back
nw I m jus a low self esteem ger..
a ger without ani confidence in her work
or even in life....negleted frenzship
when frenz nid her she is not ther
I m no longer the cecilia who cheer frenz up
ppl who r wif mi onli get
hurt by mi..I jus cant bring laughter
to my frenz ani more..
I really miss him..no matter how hard
I try..he still in my heart..the scare..
the memories..is still ther...
I dun even hav ani confidence in relastionship
ani more..nw I tink lockin myself up is better..
I jus cant let go wat shld b let go long ago...
I m a total coward...
[9:08 AM]
