Monday, June 30, 2008♥
Hmmm..Long time
I didnt blog ler ...
todae didnt go work cos
I fall sick again ler..
my body is like growin weaker
and weaker...I dunno y...
Sat(28/06/08)...I went
Clubbin wif
Jia qi, Kenny (jia qi's frenz)
yang bin and nick...
we went Mos...was like fun la..
but veri slow crowd dancin...haha..
we had lots of fun dancin mad la..
after tat 1++am..we went another pub..
Chamber 82..to drink intro by qi qi's frenz..
den we ard 2++am or 3++am..we went to
continue drinkin...but yangbin went hme first..
so we go boat quey..
drinkin..but dunno y..my mood drop
I felt so empty..I oso duno y..
I really hate myself alot..y
I always brin troubles to ppl ard mii..
y I always make them worried..
after all drinkin qiqi went hme..nick too..
onli left mi and kenny..I ask him to go hme first
cos I really dun wanna go hme..
but he insist to accompany mi till 6++am..
I feel so bad..
y I m always like tat...haix..
I m really a completely loser..
no one shld pity mii..
I rather wish I m not in tis world..
y my life so sux..
friendship, relationship and career..
all I m a loser in it...
I really dun wish to lost my best sister...
but I found tat I m like driftin apart from them
haix..I really dun wan tings turn tis way..
relationship..I cant walk out of the darkness..
y...I shld not b like tis..I shld b back who I m
but y I still stuck ther y I dun move..
m I really so stupid..I hav lots in mind
wat I wanna b is a chef..
a chef which do food tat brings happiness..
but wat m I doin...
I hav lots of negative feelins and thoughts..
kenny spend soo much time
tellin mi tings so I can hav
more positive tinkins..
but I tink i still cant
I still runnin away from the truth
haix..I m a total idiot, stupid loser..
I m so sori kenny I jus cant b
happy ani more..
I shld hav jus shut up myself or
might as well leave tis world
peacefully..den
wont cause ani one trouble ani more..
I M SORI MY FRENZ...
Thx for being ther for mi..
but I jus cant b ther for ani one of euu
I M TRUELY SORI...
even euu all wanna leave mi alone..
I m alrite cos I dun wanna
hurt ani one of euu..
I truly love my frenz and family...
[3:47 AM]
